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Wednesday, September 17, 2008

1:26 AM

As requested....
I'll update my blog b4 it dying....
But let me warn u all...
Please standby a packet of tissue paper..
cOs mayb my entry this time roud mayb very touching...
well it depend on each individual...
How u feel bout it..

Well....
Time really pass by fast, it's already the 3rd week of Ramadhan...

Lately, I've been thinking bout my late mum sooo much every nite b4 i sleep...
sometimes i do cry thinking bout those times i took care of her...

From appointments with the doctor,
accompany her to see doc wen she can stil be able to walk,
when serious situation happened til she need to be warded in hospital,
when she's being warded in the emergency ward,
the panic, scared feeling thinking of her situation,
whether's she's fine in there,
updated from the Doctor-In-Charge of her,
unlimited waiting hours for her during her major operations,
praying hard to ALLAH, hoping dat everything will be fine,
visit her everyday non-stop in the hospital,
accompany her, feed her, cook for her, help her in many ways...
The moment whereby i dun wanna go home & leave her alone...
cos i noe she'll be alone & she dun like being warded in the hospital...
she always wants me to stay over & accompany her...
NUH & Assisi Hospice always hold strongs memories of me being wit my late mum...

For all dat i've mention above....
dat is wat i've been thinking lately in dis fasting month....
the feeling of missing my late mum so badly is so strong during fasting month....

I believe during fasting month....
she's around...
Not only my late mum,
my late dad. late grandmother & late grandfather are also around
to come by & look at us....

Well, i duno how its gonna be like this raya, but all i know it will never be the same...
so much happened to me...
Love, life, work & family...

But i still Thank ALLAH, for all these...
For i've grown up & bcome wiser..
If i don't love, i won't get to noe how hurt feels...
If i don't lose things or people around me, I won't learn to cherish them...
Being happy & stay strong no matter how hard things gonna be...
pray hard & smile, ALLAH will help, though sometime its gonna take time...
Never stop believing, ALLAH don't answer to prayers straight away,
and sometimes, we dun get wat we prayed for...
but whatever comes from HIM, that's the best for us...

But i do really appreciate & cherish those people around me that do still care bout me...
Thank you very much...

These are not just words anymore,
not ego or trying to appear strong...
I'm stronger... and now I know wat dats means...

♥ I'll be everything you need....... ♥

Norazlina
23rd November 1982
Sagittarius

~ Him soooooo much, Yazid ♥♥♥ ~
~ ClOSe FwEns~
~ My Late Mum & Dad ~
~ My one only elder Brother ~
~ KIKI the crazy cat ~

- Get a job
- ~~Own a laptop~~
- Get a Class 3 Driving License
- Get engaged/married before reaching the age of 30
- ~~Own a Digital Camera~~

Eqin
Shabella

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